God I just love my image host. Fuck this. Minor delay...again. >.<
3:40 PM -04/22/03
What's the date today? God, I had a horrible weekend with my mom. It was crazy. She really wants me to live with her next year. I'm scared. We went to an amusement park and I played laser tag several times. I was always chased by guys. I'm talking to a guy who lives around here. He's nice. :) I'm bored and he's distracting me. ^-^ Really friendly. I don't feel like blogging right now...
3:20 PM -04/16/03
I won't be online tomorrow. My mom's gonna be here, and she'll be here until Monday so it'll be a while before I post again. =/ I have so much to do, but I have to hide everything and keep things on hold. *sighs* Anyway, I called Scott yesterday. My grandma was playing the piano and she had the volume cranked up so loud. I was complaining when he picked up the phone. Five minutes later he's like, "This is Scott's Dad." O.o Turns out Scott was listening on another line. He was laughing. -_-'' It's okay though. I talked to his parents. They're good. :) Besides, it turns out that I'm not the first girl his dad tricked. x_x''
6:13 PM -04/15/03
I'm talking to Karen. We're talking about our views on the war, and that just got me started. I've never really posted my thoughts regarding the war. To be honest, I never really knew where I stood. Up to now I still don't. I mean, I'm not one for war. I'm not a war freak, but I really don't think we have much of a choice. Well, I feel like we do but we just don't know what else we could do. Despite the oil and everything, I think Iraq's threat is too big to just ignore. What about Korea? I think we should be paying more attention to them. I really do. And the protests...they're pointless now. We're already at war. I think it's a 5% chance that the war will just break down. I doubt it will happen. I really do. And I also think it's gonna take a little longer than the U.S. expects the war to last...
3:38 PM -04/15/03
I'm talking to Scott. Today, even more people got hurt. During P.E. one of the balls flew straight at Roy. The guy literally flew back. -_-'' Seconds after that, Chris got hit in the face while running. Another ball rolled over Shannan's head after that. It was funny. Haha. William was on yesterday. :) Too bad I won't be on this weekend. I think. My mom will be here. Scott threw up. :( Poor guy.
3:55 PM -04/14/03
I keep hurting people today! First I hit Jessie playfully, but it came down on her face too hard. -_-'' I got in trouble for that. Next, I hit Shannan's mouth accidentally with a piece of paper, and she, in turn, hit Gaby. After that I tripped Chris...all an accident again. ARGH! I'm such a fucking klutz today! ;_; It's one of my stupid days. JESSIE I'M SORRY! As Nicole said, the slap could be "heard all the way from Mars." >.< So sorry! What was weird though was that before I hit her, she was flapping her arms so that her sleeve hit my eye. I guess she thought I was getting back at her. ;_; Anyhow, I read this article that covered the newfound "love shack" of Saddam and his missing wife. That thought is disturbing. *shudders* It's just nasty. The room had mirrors shaped like women and everything...and something about Austin Powers? I don't know. It's just gross. Ugh...Marjorie's being a bitch.
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1:54 PM -04/13/03
My family and I ate out today and went to church. Yeah, Palm/Passion Sunday. I got into another argument with my aunt, but I've got a way all figured out. It just seems like a slim chance though, but it's the best slim chance I've got. I also have to go to this party later. Yeah. I watched Bring It On last night. God, I miss cheerleading.
1:36 PM -04/12/03
So...William's not on. My family and I are okay right now, but the computer subject is still hot. Anyhow, I'm talking to a couple of friends. I just ate pizza and Cinnamon Sticks. *stretches*
3:26 PM -04/11/03
I'm in another fucking war with my god damn family. My fucking aunt wants to unplug all the wires to this god damn computer because she fucking hates me. I swear to god that bitch is so moody. She's worried about our rent because we might get kicked out all because the damn real estate people lost the check. I'd be stressed out too, but the bitch doesn't have to take it out on the first person she sees everytime she's pissed. Usually, since everyone seems to notice my faults but never their own, she takes her god damn anger out on me. :) Lovely. My grandma's nosy. My cousins are bastards. Marjorie's a selfish bitch. I did hella shit for her since my site went down and before that, and now she's bitching and ranting and begging her mom to make me leave my room so she can use the computer. I hate my family. I HATE EVERYTHING! Oh yeah, and my boyfriend might not even be online. As if talking to him over the net isn't bad enough. Anyhow, my class had reconciliation earlier today. It was strange...I confessed how I just can't forgive people right now. Too many people have caused me shit and I can't forgive them. Not yet. After the priest sent me off, I found my own spot in one pew. One of the missals was just randomly open, so I looked at it. It was strange because the gospel completely described my situation. All the other missals were closed. *shrugs* I'm bitter right now. I really am. It'll be a long time before I welcome my family with open arms. I may forgive eventually, but I don't think I'll forget.
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6:21 PM -04/10/03
Okay, some of the cliques are back up. Not all of them yet though. Jessie and I just talked to a certain enemy we have...she honestly keeps stalking us. She caused us so much shit three years ago. Jessie nearly got suspended because of her, and now she's IMing Jessie, giving calls, talking to our classmates...I hate her. We blocked her. Worst of all, she's going to my school next year. If she bothers me or anyone I know...
3:42 PM -04/10/03
OH MY GOD! I'm back! Not for good though. Jessie told me about this new image host that only lasts two weeks...trial. I'm gonna try to find a way to keep the pics up. Not all the images are gonna show up on the site. The cliques/fanlistings will have to wait until I can get a permanent image host. I also can't work on links or the content until everything else is stable. I'm sorry. I've missed this site A LOT. I've been in withdrawal. FUCK BOOMSPEED! I really hope this works. Holy shit, I've through A LOT! For one, I got my hair cut and layered short. I straightened it. It's pretty cute. Two, I took my placement test. I'm nervous. I'm already accepeted to El Camino, but I don't know where I'm gonna be yet. *breathes* Everyone there was jumpy because one of El Co's seniors died - honor roll, leadership, popular, etc. Poor girl. I saw the spot where her car landed. It flew across a divider. On the other hand, I was offered a scholarship by my current school to go to a private school, but it's a little too late. Hell...I've been through a lot. A lot. A lot. I can't cover everything. For now, I have a lot of work to do.
6:16 PM -03/20/03
OH MY FUCKING GOD! MY GOD DAMN IMAGE HOST DELETED MY ACCOUNT SO ALL MY PICS...EVERYTHING IS GONE! PLEASE WAIT UNTIL I FIGURE OUT A WAY TO SOLVE THIS GOD DAMN SHIT AND GET AT LEAST A LAYOUT BACK UP!
5:53 PM -03/20/03
Finally! My cousin's project is done. We went to McDonald's. Yeah. Greg's learning Tagalog. He also learned my language with Jessie. So talented. :) I got into hella fights at school this week. Bleh. I'm ok though. I'm so bouncy. XP Hyper.
4:17 PM -03/19/03
Ugh. My aunt was in my room all afternoon and night yesterday. She might be again today. >.< Luckily, I had Rurouni Kenshin. ^-^ I love Kenshin. I love the show. Kouru's pretty. Hell, I just love Anime. One hour left till the war. Wow. How many people get to countdown till a war? I'm talking to Danny about it.
4:28 PM -03/18/03
I got in so much trouble today...for cursing again mostly. What else is new? Life is shitty. I'm in a fight with Shannan. I'm in an unofficial fight with Jessie, as I have been several times this week. That girl is way too proud for her own sake sometimes. I mean no offense, but I have a feeling one day she'll read this. I love her and all, but things just haven't been that great lately. =/ I'm being more blunt than usual. Anyhow, The Happiness Test. I got this:
You're happier than 50 percent of the other people who took Emode's Happiness Test.
How do Emode's experts know this? Because they measured your overall happiness level in relation to other test takers. To do this, they examined your attitudes and behaviors in the seven proven areas of life that are known to determine your happiness: Contentment, Confidence, Gratitude, Personal Growth, Cheerfulness, Relationships, and Optimism.
For example, your test results show that your level of personal growth is one of the things that helps you feel happier overall. This means that for the most part you are actively focused both on exploring yourself and expanding your life's impact. You may also tend to view your existence as a glorious work in progress. Being guided by this strong sense of purpose can help you feel capable of changing things for the better, for yourself as well as for others.
I like that. My life isn't great. My situation right now isn't the best. My family relations are horrible, and sometimes my relations with just other people in general aren't that great either. I'm happy though. :) I try to stay happy. I just deal with whatever shit is thrown at me. I keep my mind focused on what's ahead of me...my plans. I'm gonna get there one day. That's part of what keeps me going. Life's shitty anyway. Why set myself down too much? That's not gonna help. Heh. I don't know why I'm so deep today. I usually keep these thoughts to myself.
2:44 PM -03/17/03
*sighs* I don't think I'll ever be satisfied. Sometimes I'll make something, take a look at it, then I'll start making something else...something better right after whatever the hell I made. I'm always trying to improve things, and right now that's pissing me off. I hate it because I can't do anything. I don't have what I need. It's that sick feeling you get when you know you're capable of doing something but you can't do it. I hate that feeling. I feel shitty. I also feel even worse because I'm doomed. Next, next school year California public schools won't have clubs (drama, etc.). Our god damn governor cut them out because "California's in debt". Fuck that. I bet half of the money goes into his own pockets. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. !! He doesn't have to take the money from us. I just feel shitty. Just because I can't fucking afford a private school doesn't mean I should have some sort of education robbed from me. He's gonna work on foreign languages and sports next. If we don't "get out of debt" he will. It's a big maybe. Fuck that. I hate him. I honestly don't have anything to look forward to. Words can't explain how fucked up I feel. If I get my hands on him... ugh! >.< There are protests all over the place already. I'd like to see every high school kid in California protest. Lol the funny thing is there's a 99% chance it's gonna happen. Even the parents are pissed. Fuck politicians. Fuck the god damn governor. Anyway, I took the Which Executive Are You test and got VP of Sales:
You're what they call a "closer" — a seal-the-deal person with a can-do attitude. Charming and charismatic, you can talk anybody into doing anything. In other words, you'd make a perfect VP of Sales. Your focus and positive outlook make you a natural at convincing others to see your point of view. And not only are you extroverted and friendly, you know how to finesse any situation so you come out ahead. That's because you can schmooze with the best of them when the situation calls for it. Trust us, that's a good thing. The world will never stop needing people who can make things happen. No doubt about it, there's a promotion in your future. So keep up the good work!
I got the Art Director last time.
11:18 AM -03/1